NUMB

I heard tat the best way of healing is to deal with the pain. i know the blog i wrote is depressing but there you go.. another one.. before you deal with pain i personally feel we go thru a period of numbness. Here is somethin that was penned down when i was in this haze..

I feel it approaching
out of the deep dark alley
I see it first just as a straw in the hay
It is a silent threat, not heard only felt
Like the storm you see quietly but forcefully
dancing on the horizon.

When i look inside,

I find what i dint know i had

I find things that i have forgotten

I used to mend quite easily, not

Knowing that there was

more to the scars than healing.

Sometimes i wonder what’s worse
The sorrow, that empty hollow feeling,

What’s worse? the pain gnawing

Through your bones or the feeling of numbness

which seeps through your bones into those crevices

That you didn’t know you had.

Just remember never let it come so close
That you can feel the mist upon you
Because the second you don't realize
That is the second it grabs a hold on you.